Watch Me Get Skinny

I am doing this for me, so I might finally feel good about myself and that I can fix my self-confidence. So maybe I can achieve what I want and destroy what holds me back.

Height: 5'0


Disclaimer: I am not a pro-ana blog, nor do I promote any eating disorders in any way. I support healthy eating and lifestyle. Any problems I may have or face is purely related to me and I do not recommend others to do or get involved in said problems.
Thank you.

March 15, 2014 10:50 pm 10:48 pm
inthecastleinthesky:

destroyed-by-calories:

sadandstarving:

luvleybones:

dismalxdestruction:

I don’t usually reblog pics like this, because most of them show a mirror reflection of an extremely obese girl, and I don’t relate to that.
But this picture really fkn gets to me.
The girl in the reflection isn’t fat, but she has fat.
And that’s how I feel.
When I look at myself, I don’t see someone overweight.  I see a girl that has fat on her body.  I’m not fat, but I have fat.
Most images about Anorexia show a deathly girl looking into a mirror and seeing a reflection of a morbidly obese girl.
It is not and has never been that way for me.
I know what fat looks like, and I am not it.
But my flesh is too much, I have fat and it’s too much.
There is too much of me.

omg this 

^^yesyesyes


someone who gets it, finally

.

inthecastleinthesky:

destroyed-by-calories:

sadandstarving:

luvleybones:

dismalxdestruction:

I don’t usually reblog pics like this, because most of them show a mirror reflection of an extremely obese girl, and I don’t relate to that.

But this picture really fkn gets to me.

The girl in the reflection isn’t fat, but she has fat.

And that’s how I feel.

When I look at myself, I don’t see someone overweight.  I see a girl that has fat on her body.  I’m not fat, but I have fat.

Most images about Anorexia show a deathly girl looking into a mirror and seeing a reflection of a morbidly obese girl.

It is not and has never been that way for me.

I know what fat looks like, and I am not it.

But my flesh is too much, I have fat and it’s too much.

There is too much of me.

omg this 

^^yesyesyes

someone who gets it, finally

.

10:46 pm 10:46 pm 10:46 pm 10:42 pm 10:28 pm

Eating Disorder Survey

CURRENTLY:
[] anorexic
[x] ednos
[] bulimic
[] living off diet pills
[x] hungry
[x] thirsty
[] drinking something
[] Under 100lbs
[] fasting/starving myself
PEOPLE:
[] ask if I’m anorexic/bulimic
[x] have called me fat
[x] have said I’m skinny
[x] have said I’m ugly
[x] have said I’m pretty
[] spread rumors about me
[x] forced me to eat
[x] say I eat too much
[x] wish I’d eat more
[x] don’t know I’m anorexic/bulimic/ednos
I WISH:
[x] I was THIN
[x] I had a better body
[] I didn’t have to eat
[x] I could control myself
[x] I was under 110lbs
[x] I could avoid food
[] I could hide what I am
[x] I wasn’t fat
[x] I was pretty
I LOVE:
[] feeling hungry
[x] seeing a difference when fasting
[] shaking
[] feeling airy
[x] losing weight
[] being anorexic/bulimic
[] green tea
[] diet pills
[x] being able to turn down food
[x] feeling good about myself
APPEARANCE:
[x] I am shorter than 5’4
[x] I think I’m ugly sometimes
[] I have many scars
[x] I wish my hair was a different colour
[] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color
[] I have a tattoo
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance
[x] I have/had braces
[] I wear glasses
[x] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free
[] I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger
[] I have more than 2 piercings
[] I have piercings in places besides my ears
[x] I have freckles
FAMILY:
[x] I’ve sworn at my parents
[] I’ve run away from home
[] I’ve been kicked out of the house
[] My biological parents are together
[] I have a sibling less than one year old
[] I want to have kids someday
[] I’ve had children
[] I’ve lost a child
[] I can’t have children
RELATIONSHIPS:
[x] I’m single
[] I’m in a relationship
[] I’m engaged
[] I’m married
[] I’ve gone on a blind date
[] I’ve been the dumpee more than the dumper
[] I miss someone right now
[] I have a fear of abandonment
[] I’ve cheated in a relationship
[] I’ve gotten divorced
[x] I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back
[] I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t
[] I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did
[] I’ve kept something from a past relationship
[] I’ve been ‘the other woman’
SEXUALITY:
[] I’ve had a crush on someone of the same sex
[] I’ve had a crush on a teacher
[] I am a cuddler
[] I’ve kissed in the rain
[x] I’ve hugged a stranger
[] I have kissed a stranger
BAD TIMES:
[] I’ve consumed alcohol
[] I regularly drink
[x] I can’t swallow pills
[] I can swallow numerous pills at a time without water
[] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression
[x] I shut others out when I’m upset
[x] I take anti-depressants
[x] I’m anorexic or bulimic or have EDNOS
[x] I’ve slept an entire day when I didn’t need it
[x] I’ve hurt myself on purpose
[] I’m addicted to self harm
[x] I’ve woken up crying

10:22 pm 10:21 pm 9:59 pm

Shredded Barbecue Chicken

healthyrecipeexchange:

Traditional barbecue - without the bun and without the coleslaw and without the fixin’s - typically hovers right around 300 calories and 19 grams of fat for a sandwich-size portion of meat (which is about four ounces). What if I told you there’s a zesty, absolutely mouth-watering recipe for barbecue that will allow you to double the portion size to eight ounces (half a pound!) for a total of 335 calories? … Oh yeah, and only two grams of fat. 

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